Saturday, January 26, 2008

Breaking the Silence

I have no good reason for why I have not posted in the last week. I have had many ideas of topics... I have done a lot of reading... but I just didn't actually post.

I'm stumped by my lack of posting. It's not like I don't have a bunch of methods to do it. I can email my posts. I can text my posts. I think I have some hangups, like, I want my posts to be perfect, well planned, well researched, etc. I also want them to have useful links to the things I'm discussing. All of those things require some time to gather that info and post. I just can't seem to carve that out.

So, I'm going to try something different (again....). I am going to try to post once a day. Even if it's imperfect and irritates me mentally. At least I will have a habit going. As I have mentioned before, I have trouble starting new habits.

We'll see how it goes.

Thoughts for this week:


  • Formulating my weight loss plan - I am going to do Weight Watchers again. Why? Because it works. Last time I quit because I got tired of counting. It's a lame excuse. I really need to lose weight for a variety of reasons I won't share right now. I have hit the point where there are no more excuses. I'm actually tired of listening to my own excuse-making. It won't kill me. So, I'll do it. I just need to see my dr. and see if I can get him to recommend it so my flexible spending account dollars will pay for it. That would be best in light of the next couple of bullet points. But cost cannot be an excuse for not doing something.

  • Starting an emergency fund - I have to do this. I have been putting it off due to my efforts to reduce debt. Those efforts are not progressing anywhere, so I'd rather have some peace of mind. That's not to say that I'm not going continue to reduce debt, but I can't afford not to have an emergency fund for much longer.

  • Seriously reducing my debt - I am not even in a position to calculate when my debts will be paid off. That is how bad it is. I need a plan that is actually progressing.

  • Figuring out when I can retire - I keep reading about people who retire early. It's not that I don't want to work, but I want to have more choices about my work. So, I'd like to have enough saved up to live off of it.

  • Finding high yield savings accounts - This is to support the points above. Since I obviously don't have much money to save, I need to maximize what the savings do for me. I am fairly certain that I'm going with an ING savings account.

  • Exploring cheap entertainment - I'm still exploring the library. I checked out some DVDs today! The last time I looked at the collection at a library, it was sad. It was great today!

  • Starting my job search again - I have to rewrite my resume, update it all over the place (online) and really find out what kinds of jobs I want. I read a few articles this week. I also thought a lot about what I'm looking for. Basically, I want to work on projects, organize data or publications, help people get things done, or work with animals. Kind of a broad nebulous list, I know. Several job titles came up: Casual game tester, pet sitter, event planner, personal assistant, project manager. I think I would learn best by becoming the assistant to someone who is doing some of these things and maybe owns their own business. I need a mentor. Anyway, I need to start looking again, despite my struggles with why I am forced to find a different job when I can live with the one I have. I have my moments where I don't want to be at work, but ultimately, I have nothing to list as things I hate about my current job, other than thinking there's something more fun out there.

  • Reorganizing my website - I need to either keep it a business site, or make it my personal homepage.

  • Exploring the many places to write - I need to keep in practice with this writing thing. I need to review movies, books, cds, and everything else I run into. I need to write about the things that interest me. I also need to write some fiction. I have these stories in my head. They are piling up. I should write them down. Just not sure how or where. I suppose I should just bang them out in Word, and quit worrying about the proper publishing medium until later.


Enough rambling for one night. Shorter, more frequent posts will hopefully put a stop to these long rambles.

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